TIS THE BUZZIN

Yes, there is a buzzing in the back of my brain...like an ongoin conversation which I am forced to tune out as I go about my very hectic pace. I'm trying to get all the decorations up and my brother hadn't until Thursday let me know if we were going to San Diego for Christmas and when and for how long. and I wasn't sleeping up until two nights ago. My creative juices are not just flowing but gushing and, of course, it's a real high. I'm multitasking like never before zipping from one project to another...There are paints, wall papwe books, porcelain pieces, photos, scrapbooking equipment, baskets and Christmas decorations spread out in four different rooms. The house looks like the state of my mind. Periodically, I stop and clear the clutter, put everything into some semblance or order and then proceed on lest my brother should sense a little mania here. So far, he has been so busy chasing his own ideas, he hasn't noticed, Thank God. I completed a set of three handpainted porcelain cherub angels playing musical instruments. They took me a day, but they are lovely...such small features - They were only two inches tall. The porcelain old fashioned Santa for my youngest daughter is complete. He was finished in both chalk and paint. On his back, I made a cloth bag which is "full" and coming out the top are miniature toys: a baseball bat, a 3-piece wooden train, a fuzzy teddy bear, a leather baseball mitt. (These can be found in the hobby stores for dollhouse supplies.) He is about 16 inches high with a red hooded suit and knee-high brown boots. I also made some
"This is not a christmas present" wrapping paper to wrap a scrap book I made for friends who are having a house built. They have been adamant that we not exchange gifts this year; however, I made this scrapbook for them to remember the building of their house and later, fun times in their new home. It starts with a picture (wallpaper) of a country house; a story of buying and building the country house; a picture of a framed house and pages for pictures while it is being constructed; pictures I took of the initial day of construction; a page labeled Texas Memories on a sheet of wallpaper of blue with Texas stars and an end page showing (wallpaper) a house in the country with some sheep and a sign "The End". We took it to them this afternoon and she really liked it. Also gave her a little 4x6 "Fat book" to write down things to be done re the house construction, picking out things, etc. and to be funny, attached a little 3 foot tape measure and a little level...both miniatures She got a kick out of that. I've been having a ball. I've been making some presents and buying others with an eye toward keeping money under control. I'm feeling really good. And I'm sleeping.

I have a confession to make. I decided to see what would happen if I just quit taking my antidepressant. Since I started the Abilify, the depression went away. So, I don't want to stop the Abilify. But since the Abilify and the depression going away, sleep has eluded me. So I stopped the Wellbutrin...I feel good and I am sleeping through the night.

I'll have to tell my pdoc eventually, but for now...I'm just going to let it go unless it starts not working. I think the buzzing will stop if I would slow myself down. This past week was the decorate the tree and house week. Now that is over and the plans have been made for where we are going to be for Christmas...I think things will calm down.