So I added water to my bed to see if it were firmer if my sleep would improve; laundered all my bedding, cleaned my room and closet, did all my laundry - perhaps a sense or order and peace will help with this insomnia? And then I cleaned the guest room and its closet, sending to the garage those things which have to do with Bill's cooking and entertaining and keep that closet from being functional in the way that it should for the household. And on to the cupboards in the bar and several in the kitchen. Of course I worked in a few things like creating some notepaper and then writing our regrets to a nephew's wedding invitation; shampooed two dogs; laundered, folded and put away three loads of my brother's clothes; filled in my mood chart and journaled a bit plus took pills on time, bathes, hair, makeup, and all other necessary healthy things. Sounds like I;m doing well, yes? I'm accomplishing a lot -- I'm not sure for what purpose -- Please note there is no human interaction in there -- no intellectual stimulation --Ate my dinner alone around 7:00p -- Bill not home yet. Ruth came over but she sat and played solitaire on the computer. Dr. S called in a new med for the insomnia; but the drugstore didn't have it and won't until tomorrow. Could have picked it up from his office but Ruth and Karen couldn't be found to drive me. So I'm hoping the firmer bed will do the job.

It is interesting how I can be stimulated and not alone when sitting with a good book which there is no one in the house. and yet be so lonely when everyone is here and on their own page. They really don't get me. Night to all of you. I'm really ok - just feel like I'm invisible. Miki