WEDNESDAY 0712

So here we go on another manic day. In looking at the chart, with the exception of part of yesterday, we have been going two weeks of manic at the high extreme. I think I probably need to call Sunkureddi and talk with him. I know one time we added an antipsychotic Abiify. I am not quite out of control but it is close. I am talking to people on the internet about home businesses to see what they are doing to make money. I know I can't do this but I am asking questions. I am talking to people on the internet about a specific course at an online school in which I am interested which would give me an MBA...now this I can't afford and this is crazy. I am putting him off.. I also did a bunch of free surveys which were to pay $10-$14 but then they all charged $1 ro #3 to send samples of things to the house. I think that I was really in trouble over the weeekend. I sometimes think it isn't good for me to be here alone on the computer. But that is the way it goes.

I went to the store and bought some dog food and then out to eat Mexican food for dinner with Ruth. She has returned from Seattle. She went right on home to bed thught so I;m here alone again.... I'm trying to stay off the interrnet except for on the blogger.

Guess I'll go and make up the sheet of the check book register so Bill can see why I run out of money is I keep having to spend it on the store, the cleaning lade, cleaning, etc.. If that didn't happen I'd keep my book in ba;amce pret ty much.

Think the embroidery for Ryan and Melissa is going to be very pretty. I've figured out the whole color scheme now.. Shouldn't take too long... Also I was good -- swam in the pool for about an hour ttthis morning.

I think I will serioudly consider the reality of sving up for acar. I hate being dependent. I might
feel better if I weren't. Why can't Bill understand thatttt.